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It’s true, you know, what I said…

…about birthdays getting progressively worse every year.

My best friend took me to dinner at Benihana and my boyfriend took me to dinner at the Corner Wine Bar, both of which were great. As for the rest of my celebrating? Well… I am hard-pressed to remember a time when my feelings have been this hurt.

I invited roughly 80 people (friends, coworkers and family) to my birthday party, being held at an Eastside bar where my boyfriend’s band was playing. Only 1 person showed up, along with his girlfriend. (That’s minus the band and the bass player’s girlfriend.)

Of those that rsvp’d:

- 3 people said they were sick. *shrug* Ok, maybe.

- 1 was “too tired.” Gee, thanks.

- 1 claimed she had to work, but I see from her Facebook posts, she was not at work; she went to a different bar.  Nice.

(I found out one of my [alleged] dearest old friends decided to reunite his band at the last minute and add them to an existing show, so a bunch of people that were supposed to come to my party went there instead. Really?! People could have at least come to have a drink with me before heading there, right? But, no, they didn’t. Whatever. I get it. It wasn’t my first choice as a place to celebrate either, but it was my fucking birthday. You’d think they’d have made an exception instead of being so concerned with trying to be “cool.”)

The other seventy-some didn’t even bother to make excuses. Pfft.

This proves a couple of things to me: All I’ve done to become a better person is meaningless and I severely misjudged people. Clearly, I was wrong about those that I thought I was fairly close to and those that I thought were interested in getting to know me better. I may have a lot of acquaintances, but I do not have real friends. All the anxiety I have put myself through just to go out and to be social, trying to connect with people and build relationships was for naught. Time and time again I am shown that most people are just not receptive. They already have their cliques and they don’t need anyone else. I’ll stick to the digital world, where people at least bother to pretend they like me… a little.

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

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Obligatory Birthday Announcement

My 36th birthday is Friday, October 11, 2013.

Yay.

Folks, it’s not like the old days when spoiled little cam girls would get a few gifts here and there “just because” or even as appreciation for photos/videos/shows. *le sigh*  No, now we have to ASK, which makes me feel icky, but, well, it IS my birthday… that’s as good a time as any, I suppose., so…

! —>>  AMAZON WISHLIST  <<— !

I am having a party, er, “informal gathering”  the following night at a dive bar in the ghetto. Not ideal, but one of my favourite local bands is playing and I’d be going there anyway to see them, so… whatever. If you’re in town for any reason, let me know and I’ll share more details privately. (Well, provided you’re not a creeper, I will!)

It’s true, I am approaching 40, but I am not having a hard time with getting older. I’m having a hard time with not being where I woulda/coulda/shoulda  been at this point in my life and seeing no way to get any closer to that. The world resolves around who you know,  money and “stuff.” People say that’s not the key to happiness, but man, it sure makes it easier to be able to focus on what does make you happy.

“I just want a life; I don’t wanna hurt anyone.” – Kay Hanley

 

Anyway, yeah, Happy Birthday to Me!  :P

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

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Catching Up

Sometimes, when I haven’t posted anything for a while, I feel like deleting everything and starting over. (I managed to hold back this time and just resume somewhat seamlessly.) You might notice, if I am not blogging and then I suddenly start up again, it is typically an indication that either nothing has changed lately and I am in need of something new and different, or there’s been a fairly major event that has re-shaped me in some way and I need my site to reflect that.

This time, beyond saying everything worked itself out (but I was really < insert negative emotion > for a while), I don’t want to talk about it and I don’t want to think about it. *moving on*

So… What else is new? (Or, for the snarky, what AM I willing to share?)

 RE: Work

It got dicey again. Two employees gave notice and instead of immediately seeking replacements, for 8 WEEKS management chose to do NOTHING and give NO instructions to the staff on how to distribute their duties or what to tell clients. When asked about it, the response was an annoyed sigh and muttered “I don’t know/I haven’t really thought about it,” followed by stomping away. Argh! I thought it was obvious that ignoring problems only creates more problems! I came very close to walking out because I just couldn’t take it anymore. After receiving so many complaints from clients and threats to terminate contracts, management finally placed an ad and interviewed a couple of people. One new hire begins training for the maintenance division next week and an existing part-timer is going full time in 2 weeks and taking over the office manager role (which she held previously before going back to school), so both positions will finally be covered. Now, if we could just get everyone to come in on time…! *grrrr* One of our competitors just opened an office night next door to my apartment building. I am going to drop off a resume there, because it couldn’t possibly be any worse than here, could it?!

RE: Makeup

Because AT&T screwed up and never sent me the sign-up bonus they promised a year ago, they issued a hundred dollar credit on my internet bill instead, which amounted to two free months. (I had to contact the BBB and State Atty General to get it, but I got it!) I used some of that money to treat myself to a few things I had not been able to purchase while being garnished for my bankruptcy atty fees. Via ebay, I bought travel sizes of:

  • Exfolikate – I am hoarding samples because this is the best exfoliator I have ever used, but it is waaaaay outside my budget. (Thankfully, a little goes a long way.) The texture is perfect and gentle and it smells like Pumpkin/Cinnamon/Clove.
  • Clinique – While I think this helps, it is so fine and airy that using it is a pain in the ass.
  • Lancome Eclat Miracle Serum Illuminator – I’m not sure how much of a highlighting/luminizing effect I get from this, but it feels nice on my skin and I feel good knowing I am wearing it. I only use it for ‘no makeup’ looks though.
  • Avon Silicon Glove lotion  – Best product for shaved naughty bits! Protects, softens, hydrates and smells like baby powder!

Then, I moseyed on down to the drugstore and picked up the newly reformulated Milani Color Statement lipsticks in:

  • Fruit Punch – bubblegum pink (love this one)
  • Nude Crème – peachy nude (this one is too light for me, but pretty)

Fearing it may disappear for Fall collection displays, I snagged a Maybelline Color Sensational Vivids lipstick too in:

  • Neon Red – Unfortunately, It’s not that bright… more mid-toned orange than red, but a red liner resolves that. However, this stuff is too moisturizing/smooth. I prefer a more matte texture.

I also grabbed a new moisturizer:

  • Alba Even Advance Sea Lipids Day Cream – People seem really divided on this. A lot of Makeup Alley users like it, but Cosmetic Cop rated it Poor. I love it and I am hard to please when it comes to face lotions. My skin had been a little ruddy (probably from the bi-weekly face masques I think I _should_ use, but don’t really need to) and this does seem to brighten, soothe and hydrate it without greasiness or break-outs. It is almost like a primer and wear well under both liquid and powder foundations.

RE: Clothes

My idea of what clothes should cost is outdated, maybe even unrealistic. I don’t want to pay more than $10-$15 for shoes and $20-$25 for clothing. I just don’t think it’s worth it. So, you can imagine my dismay when I needed new shoes for work and couldn’t find anything in that range. I had to have them though, so I shelled out $40 and got two pairs. Bummer…. Although… I was delighted when I found a dress covered in a lipstick tubes print for less than twenty bucks, a bleeding black heart t-shirt with metal spiked epaulets *whoa* for $15 and a jacket for $15 that would normally retail for almost a hundred dollars. Yeah. Yay! I still need a new black bra and black slacks for the office though. *pout* I hate shopping for shit like that.

 RE: Food, Vitamins

I fell off the ‘no refined sugar’ wagon. After a jarring July and an aggravating August, I treated myself to a Pepsi and that ruined everything. No, I am not binging on sugar by any means, but it has wormed its way back into my diet, seemingly by accident. I know it’s more realistic to re-eliminate it after things are more stable at the office than to try it cold turkey right now. Until then, I am trying to limit myself to weekends only for sweets. I only drink coffee on the weekends as well. I sip Green Tea during the work day and water in the evenings.

In lieu of breakfast (which would be crap, rather than a healthier option), I have started drinking a protein shake to keep my hunger at bay until lunch. I’ve tried two brands:

Pros: More protein than Special K and less sugar, easier to find, fitted grip

Cons: Less fiber than Special K, weird aspartame flavor, more expensive, irritating foil top, plastic packaging

Pros: Tastes good, more fiber than Slim Fast, less expensive, fitted grip, cap only, paper packaging

Cons: More sugar than Slim Fast, less protein, hard to find

For the most part, I am not as starved by the time my break rolls around, which is good. Then, I eat Smart Ones, Lean Cuisine or Healthy Choice and canned fruit for lunch. Dinner is usually slices of lunchmeat, cheese, stuffed grape leaves, pickled beets and fresh fruit.

Reasonable right? However, I’ve been forgetting to take my multi-vitamin and I am out of omega oils for a few weeks. As a result, I feel less energetic and thus am less active. I know I am not losing any weight; I might have gained a little bit back.  I am not shaming myself, but I keep reminding myself how well I was doing and how much better I felt in hopes that I will get with the program again soon because it worked.

RE: Games

I won an auction for a Nintendo NES! Fuck yeah! It comes with Mario 1/Duck Hunt, Mike Tyson Punch Out and Bases Loaded. I’ve already used ‘buy it now’ for one of my favourite games, Friday The 13th. At a minimum, I want Mario 2 and/or 3, Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Xenophobe, Remote Control, Marble Madness and River City Ransom as well. As it turns out, River City Ransom is actually pretty rare and consequently, priced high. *booooo*

I also like Popeye, T&C Surf Designs, Jeopardy, Beetlejuice, Donkey Kong, Pac-Man, Q-Bert, Wheel Of Fortune, Pool, Hollywood Squares, Pictionary, Win Lose Or Draw, Gremlins 2, Golf, Anticipation, Gumshoe, Dick Tracy, Adventures of Billy Bayou,Monopoly, Family Feud, Fester’s Quest, Tetris, Jaws, Tom & Jerry, Vegas Dream, Maniac Mansion, Paperboy, Milon’s Secret Castle, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Goonies 2, Where’s Waldo, Where in Time Is Carmen Sandiego, Yoshi, Lemmings and Star Voyager. If you have any of those and want to sell or trade, please let me know! I am so excited to hook this thing up and start playing! Man, I hope it is indeed “tested and works.” Omg! *squee*

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

Tarot Readings

Universal 6 Card Spread

The Magician

Card 1 (The Magician) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential. You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in your self and go for it!

The Hanged Man</p>
Card 2 (The Hanged Man) : What you most want at this moment  »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to have it all, why should you have to give something or someone up? Perhaps you feel a victim and that events are not going as planned. Trust that this is a passage from one phase of your life to another. If you are not sure what or who you need to give up, trust that what will be will be, and will ultimately be to your benefit.

The Empress</p>
Card 3 (The Empress) : Your fears  »

You are feeling insecure, perhaps have money worries, as a parent you may have concerns over your children, or perhaps it’s an unplanned pregnancy. There are people around you who love and care for you and they will give you support. Try not to be over protective and do not resort to emotional blackmail, it won’t do you any favours.

Wheel Of Fortune</p>
Card 4 (Wheel Of Fortune) : What is going for you  »

Call it fate or destiny but the run of good luck or good fortune you are experiencing or about to experience is mostly not of your doing – enjoy this time. If there seem to be a number of positive coincidences happening in your life this is known as synchronicity, go with the flow and trust it.

The Fool</p>
Card 5 (The Fool) : What is going against you  »
This is your Personal Court Card ( - what’s this? - )

Beware of impetuous and impulsive decisions, they could cost you dear. Draw on your knowledge and experience, perhaps there are naive and immature beliefs behind your current desires. Are you looking to move onwards and upwards or run away? Look before you leap, you don’t want to appear the fool do you?

The World</p>
Card 6 (The World) : Outcome  »

Success, fulfillment and conclusion are near at hand – the successful outcome to a venture, satisfaction in a relationship and efforts rewarded. It is a culmination of events and indicates material wealth and greater spiritual awareness. You may choose to buy that dream house or a wonderfully fulfilling relationship is on offer, enjoy!

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Ace of Pentacles Two of Pentacles Four of Wands

Past, Present, Future

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Ace of Pentacles

In the Past position
A card in the left position indicates what has happened to affect your question in the past.

Meaning: You have been given a resource. Use it well and be grateful.

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Two of Pentacles

Two of Pentacles

In the Present position
A card in the middle position indicates what is affecting your question at this time.

Meaning: Fluctuating economic fortune. Balancing act. Tricky launch of a new project. Qualms. Risky venture. Timing and dexterity. Shadowy scene and cunning characters. Juggling resources. Thinking on your feet. Agility needed to sail high seas. Uncanny instinct. Crafty business partner. A vague, even peculiar situation that keeps one guessing and on their toes. The dance of opposites. Ambiguity.

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Four of Wands

Four of Wands

In the Future position
A card in the right position indicates your questions future.

Meaning: Repose after difficulty. A prize. Unexpected celebration. Social events. Romance and fertility. Virtue, vigilance, and restraint are rewarded. Tide turned in one’s favour. Solid foundation for the future. Alliances and friendship. Sharing. Relief. On a deeper level, the card represents equilibrium and achieving a state of balance, peace, and contentment after a long ordeal. Gratitude. Emotional and psychological well-being.

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[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

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Note To Self

Relationship Resolutions

Resolutions aren’t just for New Years anymore. Think about your relationship and what you’d like to accomplish or change or improve on. You can set some resolutions on your own, as well as with your partner. Telling a friend about them will help you stay on track. Here are some examples of relationship resolutions that you might want to make:

 

  • Appreciate each other more. It’s so easy to fall into the routine of day-to-day life together and start taking each other for granted. Set a resolution to take time to appreciate each other more. Make a concrete plan and it will be easier to stick to and measure. For example, you might take time each day to tell each other one thing that you appreciate about the other person. You’ll have to remind yourself to do it at first, but then it will become a habit that you both look forward to. It forces you to take a step back from busy lives and makes you focus on each other.
  • Spend more quality time together. You and your partner probably see each other lots but is it real, quality time? We are often so busy rushing around, running errands, studying, and hanging out in groups that time can quickly go by without you and your partner spending any quality time together. Make a resolution to spend one night a week just the two of you, without distraction. Pick something that’s fun and simply enjoy each other’s company.
  • Talk about problems right away. Small annoyances can grow into big fights and resentments if you keep them to yourself and let them brew. Make a resolution to voice any problems or concerns to your partner right away and deal with them. The second step of this resolution is to move on afterwards without holding a grudge.
  • Be more romantic. You probably made lots of time for romance when you first started dating, but it’s easy to get comfortable and let it slide when you get more familiar with each other. Make a resolution to do one romantic thing each week for your partner. Anything from surprising them with flowers, to sending them a thoughtful text. Your partner will be thrilled with the attention and will hopefully reciprocate!
  • Try new things. Don’t get caught in a relationship rut where you always do the same things together, go to the same restaurants and spend time with the same group of people. Make a resolution as a couple to try something new every week. It could be a new restaurant, a new sport or activity that you’ve never tried, or anything else that’s a new experience for both of you to enjoy together.
[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

Big Week For Me!

Due to the end of the wage assignment for my bankruptcy attorney fees, I had some money left over this week after necessities for the first time in about a year. I can’t tell you what a relief that is, what a difference it makes in mood and overall mental and physical well-being. I am not drowning in my sorrow and I actually want to DO stuff.

On Monday, I went to see Kim Lenz & the Jaguars. I’m so glad I made myself go out. I had an awesome time, thanks to 5 (!!!!!) of my friends, who made sure I laughed a lot and who lovingly badgered me about how my job is so beneath me intellectually that I need to get out of there and go back to school for something I love. I needed that. I was so keyed up (in a good way) when I got home around 11:30pm, I couldn’t go to sleep for almost 2 hours. I paid for that Tuesday and spent the evening being a blob, but I still think it was worth it for the fun I had.

Wednesday, I’m catching up on things. Like THIS! Hai!

Thursday, I begin a pill regimen that I truly believe will be life changing- Theanine, a multi-vitamin and Fiber supplements. Just taking vitamins helped my energy level and depression before, but I got out of the habit and things went noticeably downhill. I’ve had some luck with Theanine from occasionally drinking Bliss Neuro beverages for anxiety, so I decided to get some in pill form. I did some research and found some impressive studies about it reducing the body’s response to stress without causing drowsiness or hyper-alertness. Perfect for me! I decided to add the Fiber for hunger control and regularity, which will give me more energy and help me get off this weightloss plateau. I’m doing more Yoga and adding Zumba as well!

Also,  we’re just getting into the start of about 2 weeks of soccer friendlies (now referred to as the International Champions Cup). My city is hosting it’s very first international soccer event ever! *pees a little* I hope it is the stepping stone to land many more! Although I can’t afford the insane ticket prices to see Frank Lampard’s divine form in person this time, I did find an English Pub within walking distance to watch the games, since I don’t have cable. (Well, except the weekday West Coast ones, because they start and hour  _after_  my bed time and will last at least 90 minutes. *pout*) My local Fox affiliate is carrying one match on Saturday though, so I can crash on the couch and watch it at home, woohoo! I think the LA Galaxy are going to get the pants off of them in a bad way.  I predict Real Madrid will face Chelsea in the final and the Real Madrid will take the cup.  Fuck, man, I love European soccer!

Friday is the last day for the Coworker who made my life [even more] hell! Fina-fucking-lee! I am going out Friday too! (Celebrating?) /cue the nervous excitement… I’ve invited several friends and actually got a solid ‘Yes’ from 3 of them so far! I hope my night is even better than Monday was. I’m debating my alcohol intake.

Sunday, I am meeting a kitty I found through Craigslist.  Her name is Sophie (meh). She’s an adorable gray tiger, 4 years old, spayed and declawed. The current owners are trying to re-home her because their other cats beat up on her and keep her on edge all the time.  They feel she’d be happier as an only pet, since she’s all lovey-dovey when the other cats are not around. The owners are very nice, responsible people who asked a lot of questions about me and my home/lifestyle before agreeing to even let me come see her.  They urged me to just let them know if doesn’t work out between us for any reason (i.e. landlord, moving, marriage, job change or personality conflict) and they’ll gladly take her back until they can find her another home.  I really want the company, so I hope we get along. Mew!

So, if you don’t see much from me this week, you’ll know I am fine, just busy-busy! :)

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

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I live on the top of a three floor walk up. My building is smack dab in the heart of the trendy “village”, so there are quite a few busy parking areas, a crapton of businesses, several houses, fairly steady traffic and lots of pedestrians. Typically, there’s activity in the neighborhood from early morning to late night, about 8am – 4am. (It is surprisingly quiet most of the time though.)
My unit is on the outer edge of the village and faces the least active side. There’s an alley, a vacant building for lease, a dentist, a logistics firm, a church, a salon and a couple of houses. (That’s very little compared to the other [inner facing] side, which has more “stuff” than I care to count/relay.)

ANYWAY, My desk faces the window. I sit at it naked. Often. Because it is comfy. On nice days/nights, I like to open the curtains and the blinds while I internet from here, look up at the sky to watch clouds, the sunset or the moon, feel the cool breeze, draw/paint, sip beverages, listen to music, etc. Because of the glare, height and casement windows, it’s hard to see in/up, but I can look out/down easily. At just the right angle and weather permitting, it’s possible to have a bit of a view of the apartments and occupants. I don’t really mind. I don’t really worry about this. (Well, usually. When there are kids around, obviously, I’ll slip on a shirt or move farther back into the recesses of my abode.)

However, I think looking out of my window is a little different from looking in it. Sure, I understand people are intrigued by such a kickass residence since there are no other apartments right in the village proper and, yes, I know what it is like to accidentally glance subconsciously/inadvertently. I mean, it’s ok if that just happens sometimes, but I am not trying deliberately to be seen, like I might in a different setting.

How much of an expectation of privacy do I have? How much of a right to it do I have? How is my behavior in my home effected? Is what I am doing “within reason?” Is what they are doing “within reason?” (All rhetorical questions, btw…)

Sometimes, I almost feel like asking the people who are staring in my window why they are looking in my window at me, but I am afraid their response would be along the lines of asking me why I am looking out at them. Are they right? Maybe a bit. Hmm, although… It’s glaringly obvious this building is residential and that you probably shouldn’t, well, stare in so, erm, avidly, shall we say. It wouldn’t be ok to peep into the windows of a house. It is ok to do it here? (Meaning, are those “rules” or “guidelines” contingent on living in a house versus an apartment?) Are my actions implied consent? (Again, rhetorically speaking, er, typing…)

I’m not trying to get into a debate or an argument. I’m not angry or annoyed. I am just curious (again, heh). I wonder where the law stands on issues like this. Is my quiet enjoyment actually a public nuisance? Oh noes!!!!1111

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

Curiouser and Curiouser

According to my Mom, I wasn’t one of those kids that asked “why, why, why,” ad nauseum. However, as an adult, I find I make that inquiry several times a day. Luckily for you, I do it internally… well, most of the time ;)

I am the type of person that likes to know “how” (and, yes, “why”); I like to learn the science and inner workings of things and people. If there’s a program on about the brain, ancient civilizations, foreign cultures, mental health or homicide, I am all over it. I do tend to gravitate more toward the human interest though, likely because I’m not good with my hands or mathematically inclined and because I wasn’t socialized properly as a kid. (All topics for another time, heh…)

I think this natural inquisitiveness, coupled with empathy, are among the things that makes me so non-judgemental/accepting of others. Everyone has a reason for their thoughts and behaviors. Sometimes it is beyond their control, sometimes it is wilful ignorance. I try to think about this before I choose my actions, words and tone.

A lot of people watch/read True crime shows/books because it makes them feel better about their own lives. I experience a little bit of that, but most of my fascination, ok – obsession, is rooted in my inate sense of curiousity. I can’t stop myself from wondering, “What makes someone do something like that?” or “Why would someone do something like that?” I even catch myself pondering the “how” of the act… how did they do it, what would have happened if they’d < insert variable here >. It’s not because I plan on committing something similar, but rather because I want to know, to learn, to understand and yes, to empathize. I believe that’s all key to prevention and rehabilitation/treatment.

My interest in True Crime has made me more paranoid, but it has also made me safer. I’ve discovered what to look for and what to do if/when I come across it. Sometimes I worry that my Intrigue will subconsciously make me a magnet for trouble/danger.

My love of books and reading is also one of those things brought about by my thirst for knowledge, though oftentimes it is driven simply by the needs to know what happens next. This explains why I rarely read a book (or watch a movie) more than once. I can’t fully engage [read: use it as an escape or to self-soothe] if I already have the whole story.

As you might guess, I occasionally get invested in specific characters too. (Dr. Alex Delaware, Virgil Flowers, Lucy Kinkaid, Alex Cross, Eve Duncan, Regan Piscoli, Selena Alvarez, Eve Dallas, Delia Peabody, Jane Rizzoli, Maura Isles, Kay Scarpetta, Odd Thomas and The Krew Of Hunters/Harrison Investigations are just a few that spring to mind right away.) Sure, I can still finish a novel with a character I don’t like or relate to, but I am probably more likely give an average rating instead of good or excellent for it.

Yes, there are drawbacks to having a strong ‘need to know.’  Some are embarrassing. One of them in particular is sexual in nature. If I see an attractive person, I am automatically overly curious about what they look like naked, what they enjoy in bed, how they sound during orgasm, what they smell like, what they taste like. (For some reason, this doesn’t really happen with unattractive people, haha!)  It is hard to explain to a partner that it’s not necessarily the person I desire, but rather the intimate information, but that I have no actual intention of acting on my curiosity, I’m just, well, curious. Unfortunately, that’s not exactly the kind of thing I can just ask a complete stranger in public and expect an answer, let alone an honest one, without people thinking you’re a total creeper. Unless it’s on the internet? LOL!

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

[Mad Men] The Mystery Of Bob Benson

There are numerous theories about him. Clearly, he is up to something. Is it sinister, just human desperation or due to longing for a better life?

Lately, I am shying away from thinking the obvious one- he’s undercover investigating Don’s identity fraud, because I’m not seeing much interaction between them or sensing any pique of interest or emotion involving Don and I feel like that scenario would just be too obvious for Weiner. Unless maybe this is something instigated by Henry or because of Henry’s candidacy? Maybe Bob’s presence is indirectly related to Don because of the original Mr. Draper’s family’s proverbial skeletons in the closet? (Or, what if  Bob is the child of Amy [the prostitute that took Don's virginity] and Don? Wouldn’t that be a bit of a mindfuck? The child of a whore has a child from a whore? Bob apparently has links to rural areas, as Don did…)

I don’t think Bob is someone from the future. I also don’t think he is actually homosexual, though enforcing the idea that he is (without causing him to get ousted for totally queening out around those ‘phobes) might be central  to what he is doing there.

I believe Pete Campbell is somehow either the target or directly related to the target of whatever Bob is trying to accomplish. I am thinking Pete is the key to the mystery, especially since some interviews with cast/crew have suggested there will be more sympathy for Pete this season and I haven’t really felt those pangs yet. Either Bob is/was supposed to do something awful to Pete or he is/was using him to get to the real target. My current theories range from Bob having something to do with Pete’s actions (i.e. financial, affairs, bigotry), Beth (remember her pre-shock treatment romance with him?), Trudy or Pete’s in-laws (gathering ammo for divorce?), Pete’s brother (financial troubles?), mother or even deceased father. I’ve also thought that Bob is there because of Pete’s rivalry with Roger. Roger’s continued “who are you?” could be to divert attention from the fact that he does indeed know Bob and that he’s there at Roger’s behest.

I’m also speculating as to whether Manolo is really the master of whatever Bob is up to and Bob is doing his dirty work. Their phone conversation made it sound like Manny knew someting about Bob’s activities and that maybe he was even calling the shots.

I do wonder as well why he is being particularly nice to Joan and why she’s letting him/being that friendly in return, when she’s pushed others away. Does he have something to do with Greg or the war? I’m skeptical of that theory too because I’m not noticing any trace of ill will towards her or over-inquisitiveness.

(Sidenote: I’ve taken note that there are some characters with which Bob has had little to no contact, i.e. Peggy, Harry… however, as far as what that means- if anything, I have no guess.)

I think it’s also likely he’s a notorious figure from the era- perhaps a sociopathic serial killer (might explain his overly-chipper demeanor and self-help records), political figure, civil rights advocate/opponent, runaway royalty, revolutionary, terrorist, thief, spy or journalist (in cahoots with Abe?). In which case, the questions to ask are: who would benefit by infiltrating an ad agency? What would be the ultimate goal of doing so?

Overall, I am really enjoying this season, despite the reviews. I feel like there’s a lot of foreshadowing and emotional undercurrents that are worth multiple views and that this is really an accurate reflection of the time period. I have an inkling that something really big is going to happen, though it might not be in this season. But it’s definitely coming. And you know it’s going to be tragic, uplifting and thought-provoking all at once!

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]

Smackoff 2013

[REVISED]

It’s the 19th annual Smackoff on The Jungle, hosted by Jim Rome. (If you don’t know what this is, well, basically, it is a sports show where callers talk shit about related matters, about each other and anything else they want to slip in there. The Smackoff is an annual event wherein the best of the best callers compete by invite only for the prestigious title of “King of Smack.” Yeah, there’s a crapton of inside jokes, but you catch on after a while.) Best radio of the year, easily! No, it’s not what it once was, but it’s still damn entertaining. (Sidenote: The signal for my new local affiliate SUCKS.) I was listening at work, so I may have missed bits here and there. Fifteen callers (I think?) made it on the air, one of which was an imposter and two (I think) of which were run (i.e. stopped/cut off/disqualified at the discretion of the host).

I slotted them [all] as follows…

1. Mark in Hollywood/Siri
Highlights = fake get a little more fake, Lonnie T + Brad, had sports takes, Siri’s date w/ Mike & his mother at Olive Garden, Marion Barry (crack) reference, casual delivery/read but not obvious

2. Brad in Corona *RUN – I don’t agree w/ that.
Highlights = Legacy of other’s packages & poop, great J Stew impersonation, potential retirees/retiring after beatdown, had sports takes, “just me & hate” w/ background music, sang long but laugh-worthy song

3. Steve Carbone
Highlights = Jennifer Love Hewitt lamentations, Reality Steve sued but still going strong, sweet Chael disses, Charlottes Web mention, funny because they’re true sports takes, he’s a jungle legend who gets the vibe of the show, smooth delivery

4. Mike in Wichita
Highlights = old callers v. new school, no dissing of Doc Mike, “medulla oblongata” in an Arkansas accent, calling your sister Dumbledore, 49er to 4.9 breathalyzer

5. Mike in Indy
Highlights = ask Siri how many gigs of porn Mark has, scrub non-factor & also a scrub, had sports takes, “eat the bones” reference (but he was obviously reading)

6. Chael Sonnen
Highlights = wanted entertained but got noise, never took steroids- he paid for em, robin hood take (um, no), Obama change take was STOLEN, started to flame & tried to cover it by dismissing the topic, Amanda Bynes waking up in a frat house w/ more clothes on, doesn’t defend crown – displays it

7. Joe in the OC
Highlights = have to pick out Chael in a line-up, not ok gay teammate bashing comments, feel of silicon compared to kids in bouncehouse not complaining grass is too hard, gave love to Serena and Venus too

8. Dan in DC
Highlights = Work kept me from jotting down anything during his call and damned if I could remember anything beyond liking it. :P

9. Vic in No Cal
Highlights = working on his script all night turns him into a gremlin, had sports takes, best acceessory to murder to lace up cleats, Tebow smack, comparing clones to maggots – well done, greek for “tiny little balls, ” sang :(

10. J Stew
Highlights = “nicks and cuts of a blade” reference, broke down the winning formula, average call that would’ve been racked but not quite top notch quality for Smackoff call – expected better from him

11. Dave
Highlights = risky bringing up Rome’s setbacks and failed jungle karma, some lame attempts to dis Chael, poked fun at “blasé” (blaise), hockey

12. Trapper
Honestly, I just like Trapper. He’s classy and intellectual. he deserves respect for the years he’s put in. I especially love when he uses quotations. I’m kinda worried about his repeated throat clearing though… Does he have cancer? I knew the clones would comment on it :(

13. Faux Silk *Imposter, LOL
Highlights = He wasn’t really Silk Brah. I can’t believe he got in. His impersonation wasn’t quite spot on, but still a mildly amusing idea.

14. Boatie
Highlights = I don’t know what to make of this. Please tell me this is a schtick I am not in the loop on.

15. Jason in Little Rock *RUN, but a little too soon, I think.
Highlights = Right off the bat I was wondering how the hell this hilljack moron made it in. (Figures it is his first rodeo. And hopefully his last.) Romey ran him for not acknowledging his opponents smack attack immediately. I thought that was a little unfair. I mean, surely, he was getting to that… Right?

[Crossposted from TousledElegance.net]